As I looked across the room, looking at the men that were inundated with diseases. I thought to myself, “I wonder why they are sick?” Each of the 3 men had their own stories and I was interested in finding out the root of their problem. They all suffered from the same disease, one more severe than the other 2.
They were fighting a disease that they said was a pain that they could not describe. It could hit at anytime and anywhere on their body. They came to the doctor to be given a higher dosage of pain reliever that could instantly take the pain away.
It made me think about life and how we go through things that are tough. How those situations can get the best of us if we allow them to and bring us down into deep emotions that are far beyond the surface.
Many of us deal with issues from our childhood that have never been dealt with or confronted. We end up carrying the weight of those issues into our adult life without taking the much needed time out to allow God to perform surgery on our hearts.
The Bible says in Psalms 147:3 that “he heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds” (New Living Translation). Talking to the 3 men I was curious to know what was causing them such indescribable pain. I couldn’t resist asking them about themselves. The more they talked the more I heard where the pain was stemming from.
I spent time observing the oldest man. I noticed that he was constantly checking his phone and texting multiple women. His life was encompassed by validating himself through relationships. Anytime a younger woman would walk into the room, he would forget that he wasn’t feeling well and automatically begin to put on his mackdaddy voice. He wanted to talk talk talk. Without regard to listening to anyone else. He wanted all the attention.
I thought to myself no one begs for what they have already. So therefore, if he is begging for attention maybe he is lacking that in his life. Maybe he is lonely and he doesn’t want to listen to the inner voice inside of him that is screaming out for his attention.
Through conversation it seemed as though maybe he was running away from his problems. It seemed as if pointing the fingers at others was much easier for him to do than taking time out of his busy schedule to sit silently and evaluate what he did right versus what he did wrong in various situations. It seemed as though he would rather keep the pain and use it as an excuse to get attention from women, than to allow God to heal him and become a whole person.
It made me think about how so many times we can find ourselves looking for someone else to heal the parts of us that we are too timid to heal ourselves. Only God can step in and do that. Almost everyone has something that they are going through. It’s hard enough for them to carry their own burdens so why should we expect them to carry ours.
I guess in reality it’s rather selfish of us to be broken and want someone else to do the work of putting us back together again. Only God can do that. It even says in Psalm 55:22 “Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you”. He wants to help you. Yet we want another human being who is not equipped to be God to do what only he can do.
That is why I choose to not refer to myself as a God. I know that we are made in his image, but so are figurines at the wax museum. Just because they are made in the image of our favorite stars doesn’t make them the true being. Plus being God is way too much work for me personally. If I’m God who’s gonna help me? Who can I turn to in my time of need? Who will protect me? Who will heal me??? Only God, himself, can do that.
The youngest man in the room was very intriguing. Very attractive and athletically built. I was almost shocked to see him sitting in so much pain. He slept a good bit of the time, but when he was awake I questioned him? What do you do? What are your talents? What were you good at in school?
He told me how he was a football player for a couple of years in high school, then he shook his head in a way that let me know I hit a sore spot. He didn’t want to talk much about it, but I could sense that he was hurt about that dream not coming to fruition. His eyes looked like he was feeling hopeless, but his body was still strong and agile. He looked like a running back.
He didn’t talk much. He held a lot in, but I could tell he still had love for the game. His eyes lit up while we talked about football and I understood in that moment how he felt. I asked him if it was too late for him to play college ball and he said “no”? I told him about how there was a young man that I met who played college football. He didn’t start off that way, but he was determined in his heart to do it, so that’s what he did.
He walked up to the head coach of the football team and said “I would like to play”. Looking at his size and impressed by his determination, the coach decided to give him a chance. Not only did this man make the team, but he graduated as the captain!! He was such a pleasant person to be around. Kind and humble. God gave him the desires of his heart.
Sometimes God doesn’t work in our timing, but one day he can just show up and bless us out of the clear blue sky. So even when it looks like your dreams have been deferred that doesn’t mean that God doesn’t have a blessing stored up for you. That is why it’s so important to never give up because at any moment God can step in and change your whole life. Never be discouraged for too long that you lose hope.
The middle man was the most complex. He had even more ailments then the first 2. He played sports, he was a chef, and he could paint. He was very intelligent, he had good manners, he was in shape, and he had good style. It took me awhile to understand where his pain was coming from because he seemed so blessed with so many talents and so much love to give. So it wasn’t love that he was lacking because he had that in his life. It wasn’t hope that he was missing because he was very hopeful, but maybe it was faith that he was missing.
It’s easy to look around and say “I have so much to offer, I have so much love to give, but why am I not further in life? Why am I not married? Why am I not in a mutual loving relationship? What’s wrong with me? Am I not good enough???”
That question alone can strike your heart and cause both pain and rage to arise if you don’t know how to answer it correctly. You must respond to that question in a way that makes YOU feel good. You have to have faith in yourself that sooner or later God will send you what you need. You have to know that you are good enough and if someone doesn’t recognize it, it’s their loss not yours.
Sometimes God saves the best for last. You have to walk knowing that whether I go alone or with someone else I am still good enough. When you are enough you know your worth. You know how valuable you are and you understand that only someone worthy deserves to be in your presence. The Bible says “don’t get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up” (Galatians 6:9).
So don’t give up and allow the pain of delayed situations to eat away at your heart. Instead take your joy back and decide that “no weapon formed against you shall prosper” (Isaiah 54:17). BE encouraged always. The enemy wants you to be sad, miserable, hopeless, lonely, and depressed. God wants you to be joyful, hopeful, and full of good cheer. Scriptures reads “3 things will last forever–faith, hope, & love; & the greatest of these is love” (1 Corinthians 13:13). So remember to keep the faith, keep hope alive, and always always always show love.
Love & Light,
Have you ever lost the faith? Felt alone and hopeless?? What did you do to overcome those feelings???